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~PROFILE~
* F O R E V E R C H A N G I N G *
KhaiRuL As'ari
Yishun Junior College
21061989
Aspiring Saxophonist
1st Alto Saxophonist in YJ Winds
Social Education Secretary of Kallang YEC
Assistant Publicity Secretary of Kallang MAEC (TBC)
Only those I know will know...
SmilesforMe
Education- Both Teaching and Teached
Supportive Family and Friends
Being Believed in Whatever I do
Music
Love
HoldingOnFor
More Friends
NUS Arts and Social Sciences Faculty
More Enduring Support
Conducive temple of education
Alto Saxophone
EXTRAS
The Road Not Taken
by: Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the tother, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy ans wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
The Source Of Life starts at... 7:30 PM.
+my life so far+
there's a saying,"one needs to let go of the past to make way for the future" (or at least something like that). I believe in this saying, i believe in letting go of my past to receive a new future. It's true what, how can one grow if he or she still clings on to their past? One needs change in their life, and me? Well... you can say that I've grown out of my cocoon... whatever that means.
Most of you may know, I'm no longer in EVG, but now in YJC. Change is inevitable in this phase of my life. A young adult I am now, and that we are now able to handle our responsibilities well. However, i don't think I have... just yet. Somehow, something in me still longs for my past, life in secondary school, what sweet memories and bitter fights, praiseworthy people and bickering bitches, mature-ness and naivity... *sigh* those were the days. But I need to snap out of it. I'm no longer in EVG, then why am I still clinging on to there (well, at least my soul is)? YJc should be my new haven, my new 2nd home, my new buddy, or whatever it is. I need to let go!
But some may say i am acting a little bit immature. What do you expect, i'm still 16! Of course i'm still immature. It'd be like a few more months till i turn 17. Might as well i be immature now, then start being mature when i turn 17. What am i saying?
Anyway, even though my 'soul' might still be clinging to EVG, I am now adapting comfortably to YJ. What with new subjects, new faces, and ahem, new crushes, i'm loving YJ now. It's like, the atmosphere is not what I have expected before I entered it. I've heard from people that in general, JC life would be stressful, and in YJ, even though you have free periods, you still need to do self-study and that you'd be punished for not doing so. I can't deny that self-study IS important in JC life, but punished for not doing as such, that's a little unfair ain't it? That made me hesitate to put YJ as my first choice (but i did it anyway). However, when I got admitted there, all that saying, how crappy or shitty it may be, they were wrong. In fact, YJ is fun! What with the flexi-combi thing and the warm people, I'm loving YJ by the third day since I joined it. YJ is the place to be.
This whole "I love YJ" thing is kinda getting to my head even until my best friends claim that I have changed drastically since graduation day. Have i really changed that much? Maybe. I feel that I get to be ME now and that I'm less shy to bring myself out into this world. I'm more interactive with people and my god, just count the number of new friends I've met in YJ. Obviously, i'm more... how to put it... erm... charming now? Hahax... guess not.
But one of my best friends said that I've grown to be more cocky, and irritating now. Oh god, is that a sign I should stop being me? I mean feeling what I've felt before, where i'm restricted from the right to BE myself? Maybe, just maybe, I'm not worthy to be myself and I should follow others and be in their shadows more often? To me, I HATE that feeling. I've made myself a promise to break out of the coccoon, and I'll do just that. Who cares whether people find me annoying, let it be. I'm just doing my part in this world in being myself. But i do need help in controlling though, i can't deny that. Everything has limits. And I wouldn't want to lose my friends because of this "let-me-be-me" thing. Help me yar!
Anyway, all I have to say is, CHANGE is good, but In order for it to be good, you need to accept it POSITIVELY. That's all that I have for today. See you soon. =)
